all because i was carrying you in the womb of my heart, my love; was i really able to smile
not every lady who bears children can become a mother
if the sky could look any prettier my love, i’d name it after you
you shall only win, when you’re not scared to lose.
oh the love to me shall be revived.
for oh i can’t let all that i’ve dreamt to this day, remain a mere figment of my imagination.
for oh tonight, the pain to me, may be overwhelming, but oh i shall not lose the part to me, that oh i held the closest.
no matter how broken or difficult the times might be;
oh i shall continue, to love.
for this is what it was all about, since the very first.
oh i shall continue, to express.
for oh this is, all that i seem to know.
oh i shall continue, to remain the fool i always was.
for oh that is all that i’m
oh i shall survive
for oh there’s no way, i can allow, this part of mine, to extinguish itself now
when oh i’m still, yet to save:
someone who never considered living, without the shackles to her
when oh i’m still, yet to save:
someone who never thought, she could be loved
when oh i’m still, yet to save:
someone who thought it to be impossible, for her to be rescued
oh i shall love
oh i shall manifest
through all that beats within me
that oh there exists;
a love; which oh is shaped to understand the respect, for the one beside
a love; which has a habit of being accepting and oh so forgiving
a love; whose etiquettes are to be kind and just innocent
a love; which oh is knitted, to be honest and oh just so pure
a love; wherein oh the tradition of it is as such,
that oh he loves expecting nothing, other than for the her to be happy
oh he loved, and oh he still loves
because loving, was all that he could dream about
because oh it was just love,
that oh he seemed to knew
no matter, how much of a faraway dream
it once felt like
oh it shall become
for oh if there’s a destiny, awaiting
it is the one, wherein i love.
oh i’ve returned. no matter, how dark or deep a slumber, oh there’s nothing, that love can’t save.
love may be rare, but oh it exists.
oh if you’re doubtful, of believing in the same, then oh let me and my story, be what anchors, this truth.
oh i’ve seem to lost it
something, which oh once allowed me to write all the love, that oh i wanted to
something, to which oh i can’t exactly put a name to; but oh it just isn’t around anymore.
i’ve tried, time and again
to be able to
but oh i just can’t.
scrolling back to all that i’ve ever written; all of it feels like a sweet dream.
a dream that today, no matter how much i try, oh i just won’t be able to live.
oh i’ve wished and begged, everyday; just to be allowed to write.
to be allowed to express, all that would come to me
but oh i just can’t.
writing love came to me, out of nowhere. it was but a gift.
but i guess, i’ve lost it now.
for my heart lies, a lil too damaged
to be able to feel, the way i used to
to be able to be the way, i’m meant to be.
oh i guess, it’ll but take a while, for me to return to writing
hopefully, i’m not gone too long
such that i forget, all that love taught me
such that i forget,
that oh i ever wrote.
i’ve always kept my pain to myself, but oh i just couldn’t seem to endure it any longer. having lost so much, the past year, i guess it was just inevitable, for me to fall.
this year, has been rather tiring and oh i’ve just no expectations whatsoever, from the next.
don’t know, where i’ll head next. but hopefully, i survive.
i’m sorry, for i’ve not really been myself.
i’m just sorry.
oh how ironical, was it my love, to love you
for oh how when you shared the tears to your past
i held you in my embrace and told you,
as to how, it all shall be just fine
but oh how my love,
when the time came for you to hold mine
oh how easily, you questioned as to oh why should you be the one
to understand and remain wise
for oh you’d instead prefer,
not everyone holds you as close as you held them
oh my love, let me trace my lips softly,
over your gaze, just so my love,
they could smile just as sweetly,
like the rest of you.
oh how beautiful of a panorama, you’re my love
as oh i see you dressed oh so beautifully
in flowers oh so colorful
that oh grew above the canvas, that is oh my love
the most fertile there is, even when oh so many
tried to pollute, all that is beautiful to you.
oh how my love, it has become my dream
so as to witness,
the way your eyes would hold my words
for oh my love, oh there’s no place outside
if oh my love, i’d have you
close to me.
for oh who would ever chase the stars passing by
when oh my love, i’m but residing in the warm embrace of the moon
oh my love, let me not just stop
as you read through my heart
but oh let me, my love
just take you on a walk
somewhere sweet and peaceful
for that is all my love, i can seem to afford,
oh how beautiful, of a day
it would really be my love
as oh my love, i close my eyes
so as to imagine you
as you wait, for me in a dress oh so red
while oh my love, i shyly make my way to you;
oh how my love, could you feel me
as oh i leaned in; towards you
only to whisper, as to oh my love
how dreamy, were you looking
only to ask, oh my love
if i could possibly hold your hand
oh how my love, i saw you smile
only to teasingly deny
saw you started walking;
only for you to look back; smiling
whilst your eyes allowing me
to hold yours.
oh my love, how happy i was
but oh i was to, contain all it in me
only to find myself turn all red.
oh my love, how sweetly mean were you
when oh you joked about
how your dress and my face,
were of same the color.
oh my love, i wanted this eve
with you in it
to last a lifetime.
for even just the imagery
of this imagination of mine
is making my heart flutter.
oh my love,
would you mind
if i were to ask you
to run away, for a short while
from all eyes
just so my love, i could finally meet you;
while making sure, that oh my love, you’ve nothing else
to worry about
for i know, how much you love to perform
and oh i wouldn’t want a
mere wish of mine, for wanting to love;
hinder all that you desire for.
for oh this simple, walk of mine
oh my love, it is just not for me
but for the both of us
oh as we sit, overlooking a small city
i shall but my love
let you know all
let you know, all that oh my love
oh my love, hear me
“oh how my love, i want you to be free
from all expectations,
that people seem to bracket you in
oh my love, i want you to prosper and be known
for not, as the daughter of one of the greatest
but for the woman, you’re.
oh my love, to me personally
it was always
as and when i’d think of you
the only thing that oh i’d whisper to myself
as to how
“your mother has your eyes“”
oh my love, how i didn’t realize; halfway
when and how
you were laying in my arms
with your eyes closed
under a sky full of stars
but oh at that moment,
oh my love, i smiled to myself
for oh you were once afar
but oh look at us today
oh so close. oh so warm.
it was 2018, when i stumbled upon, janhvi. i remember, the way my eyes stopped being all teary, for oh the calmness to her eyes, seems to have calmed me down.
i couldn’t really forget her after that. she was always there, somewhere.
if you don’t know, who janhvi kapoor is, she’s an actress who works in Bollywood. personally, i don’t know much about bollywood but well, it is a part of her. i’m clueless really about movies and stuff like that.
but i do seem to know a lil about her. because of all the interviews and a few videos here and there. she’s a really sweet and mature, girl with a rather warm and caring nature. she also has a goofy side to her, which is rather cute. if you notice rather sincerely, you’d be able to tell the same.
she’s probably much stronger now, for the industry she’s in, asks for one to be. but then, one has to be, for the world is just the same.
she resembles my mom, in a lot of ways, which is probably one of the reasons, i found myself developing a liking towards her.
anyway, she’s not someone, i have the means to reach out to, and well, that’s okay.
I’m just happy to be able to live all that i wish for, which she happens to be a part of, through all that i write.
thank you for reading.
oh how the bubbliness to you
seems to have caught my eye
for oh it’s been so long,
since i’ve felt that way now
oh how for a moment, i felt
it is as if, you’re the part of me
for whom i’ve longed for oh just so much
oh it is as if it was you
who i’m supposed to meet halfway
oh i was but able to read the kindness to you
and the warmth that your words carry
making one and all; smile
oh how my love, today
it was you who
designed the dream
for us to live
how i’m but able to imagine
feeling you close to me
while oh we sit together
wrapped in a blanket
with you on my lap
away from all noises
under the winter sky.
oh how there was no winter
for you and me
for oh i held on to you; tighter
as i felt a cold breeze, passing by
while oh we were gazing at the hills
with my eyes glancing at you smiling, in pauses
as we saw the sunset to these hills, reside on his lap
while the one that belonged to me
resided on mine
oh how my love, it was you all along
to whom, i’ve wanted to recite
this one and so much more
that oh i may have written
so as to see you smile
for is there a sight more pretty
than with you smiling?
oh is there a dream, that is more beautiful
to find you, laying over me; as oh my love, i read you the book, that oh i wrote for you, while you sip coffee, and pet all the puppies as they run and play, all around us
oh there just isn’t one,
for the bubbly one.